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68. 每况愈下
From Bad to Worse
Hearing about such a tragedy, Sean didn't know what to say. But after a pause, Ben continued,
"My parents were devastated by my brother's death. They were very angry with me. I felt very
guilty inside, but on the outside I didn't show it and instead I blamed Boris himself."
"Well, you didn't make him take drugs. He did it himself," Sean was quick to agree.
"Everyone has to be responsible for his own actions."
"Yes, that's true. Everyone has to take responsibility for his own actions. But I did not
take responsibility for mine. Anyway, after that my parents started having a lot of problems.
They fought a lot, blaming each other for Boris' death. Finally they divorced."
Sean found what Ben said unusual. It was rare that people would admit their own faults.
Adults would make children admit they were wrong, but he couldn't remember any adult
who would admit wrong on their own. But Ben did. Sean admired that.
"That's a sad story," said Sean.
"Yes, but that was not the end," wiping his tears away, Ben continued. "If it had ended there,
then I probably wouldn't be telling you the story because I was very messed up. And I was ashamed
of what I had done. Anyway, my grades were going from bad to worse, and finally I got
kicked out of school. It was downhill from there. I hated myself. I hated everybody." Ben
shook his head as he recalled.
Sharing about one's failures was certainly not something Sean had seen much of before. And Ben
didn't seem like a hateful person any more. In fact he came across as caring and personable.
Sean wondered what had changed him.
"You don't seem like a hateful person now, so what happened?" asked Sean.
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